I wasn't able to schedule my first appointment and ultrasound until I was 12 weeks pregnant. I was trying to decide if I wanted to have a home birth or use the hospital. Because of that, I waited to make an appointment. I ultimately decided I wanted to use a hospital as I had with all my other births.
I had developed a rash on my arms around week 8 of my pregnancy which was consistent with the rash I had with the twin girls. At first I thought the rash was a reaction to the soap I was using or something like that. But then it hit me...."I bet this is the same rash I had with the girls and I'm pregnant with TWINS AGAIN!!!"
I told Nathan I felt it was twins but he was convinced it wasn't.
When I got to my ultrasound appointment, I told the midwife about my thoughts and facetimed my husband and kids so that they could hear and see what was happening.
And sure enough!!! It was TWINS!!!....AGAIN.
I was shocked but also not shocked. I think I honestly would have been more shocked if it hadn't been twins. Having the rash, and the extremely high odds of having twins again just really made me believe it was.
I had spent weeks trying to figure out how on earth I would manage twin babies again while having twin toddlers plus homeschooling three grades but once I saw the twins on the ultrasound all my worries really just melted away.
For weeks up until the ultrasound, I had actually been struggling pretty hard. It was the first time in any of my pregnancies that I felt worried, nervous, an emotional wreck like....how am I going to handle this/what if it's twins again/I am exhausted etc.
I was really in a mentally difficult spot and hadn't talked to anyone about it other than one other twin mother who has 7 children. She totally understood and really reassured and encouraged me. I had never dealt with feelings/emotions like that after getting pregnant so it was all very strange to me.
But once I saw them...all of that just was gone and I have been so at peace about it all since.
Will it be a wild adventure having four children (2 sets of twins) UNDER 2 years old for a few weeks and then it will be four children ages 2 and under once the girls have their birthday in August???....Yes, yes it will be!
But it will also be wonderful and amazing and it's what God wanted for our family so I have total peace about it all.
We are so thankful for these babies!!!
And I am still trying to get used to saying "I am a mother to EIGHT children!"
xo,
Lauren
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